Sid Roth

SID: I mean, what a devastating thing. A young boy, the one that’s been with him his whole life that he thinks is his father and he knew his natural father, but he didn’t know him as “father”. And his father brings him, in the basement and tells him the truth. How old were you?

JOHN: I figured about six.

SID: At six, what affect did it have on you?

JOHN: From that moment on I did not want to live with my mother and my stepfather. I wanted to be with my dad. And it brought in, it developed that spirit of loneliness was deep with me. I had, it was a supernatural spiritual loneliness. It brought a feeling of rejection in. It actually brought fear into me because I remember I was afraid he would try that again. And I never was, from that day on, I was never comfortable in the family. And it devastated me inside as a little six year old. And that was that problem. It broke my heart at six and it carried over when I came to believe in the Lord Jesus Christ.

SID: Okay. You have the revelation that you have a broken heart. You now realize when it happened.

JOHN: Yes.

SID: You know exactly. What did you do about it?

JOHN: I cried out to the Lord to heal my heart. And Sid, it took me with the Lord about two or three weeks of prayer. And I can remember laying in bed at night with tears rolling down out of my eyes with this feeling of loneliness and emptiness, and it got to the point where I realized then that I know why a spouse will die like within a year after a spouse passes away.

SID: I’ve noticed that pattern.

JOHN: That loneliness, that’s what I actually felt. It felt like I was dying. That’s how severe it was. And then I cried out and I said, “Lord, if I die over this then I go to be with you, but I’m staying and I’m believing you’re going to heal my heart.” And literally, I could feel relief. It like came like that. It just came like up and out.

SID: It sounds easy, John.

JOHN: Well those two weeks, three weeks leading up to it, for me, was not easy. But the Lord delivered. I began a whole new man. That emergency brake feeling came off.

SID: But what about that fear, the loneliness, the loneliness you explained, the rejection, what about those things?

JOHN: I began to see how I operated in my life. One of the healing, one of the ministries of Jesus Christ is to open the eyes of the blind. And all of a sudden I began to see like now that my heart was healed actions that I did to protect that heart, and also the way I interacted with people with the fear of rejection and not wanting to be rejected, and things I said, and things. There was a whole complete revelation and I began to confess it to the Lord and say, “Lord, I’m not living with fear anymore.” I didn’t even know it was there.

SID: I heard a man once say, God never sets you free of your friends. He sets you free of your enemies. And he had no idea there was an enemy called fear. But this is the amazing thing. Once the heart is restored then these other critters that are enemies, they literally have to go.

JOHN: That’s right.

SID: It’s so wonderful. But tell me when the Bible talks about the ministry of Jesus was to restore the broken hearted, what does the word “broken” mean in Hebrew?

JOHN: That’s a real good question. And it’s actually Hebrew and Greek really mean the same thing. It means a violent shattering. There’s the word “violent”. And it’s like you have like this glass here and I took it and I just didn’t drop it, but I threw it down on the ground.

SID: There would be no way to restore that.

JOHN: It splinters apart and that is what the Bible describes as a broken heart. And Sid, there is nothing human on this earth that can heal a broken heart. It can only be, it’s supernatural, it can only be healed by Jesus Christ. That’s his ministry.

SID: Tell me about the woman with ulcerated colitis.

JOHN: Well what happened, Sid, is when my heart was healed, all of a sudden I would come in contact with people and in my mind I would hear, I would look at you for example and I’d hear “broken hearted, broken hearted”. And I would go up to you very politely, I just didn’t yell at you. I’d say, “Excuse me, but I believe the Lord is telling me you have a broken heart.” And people would start crying and it was amazing. The Lord is putting people across my path who need to be ministered to. So this ministry started to develop, just happened when I’d see instant results. Sometimes the results would take a while, but instant results. And this one woman had a powerful spirit of rejection. It happened when she was about five or six years old, just like you mentioned, rejected by kids, and all her life this rejection just continued. She had two husbands that left her and they liked divorced her on a Friday, and then married another woman on a Monday. And that, she was just, she had like a self-hatred of herself. And when I ministered to her about the broken heart it was very hard for her to receive that God loved her because of her broken heart. Even though she believed in the Lord, I know that this sounds weird, but that’s what happens with a broken heart. Jesus was her savior. But the reality of calling God, Abba Father, she couldn’t do it. She said, “I can’t do it.” It took a couple prayer sessions. And she had ulcerated colitis, where about four or five years, she was in the final stage of it. I mean, it was critical. She was anemic, bleeding severely. Finally, she broke through with Abba Father, her heart was healed and at that point my ministry, now what I do is if someone has physical issues, when I pray with them for a broken heart, we also pray for the physical issue. Because a lot of times the physical issue is caused by the broken heart, the fear and anxiety, and tension. So we prayed and her ulcerated intestines were healed right there on the spot.

SID: Once the heart is healed, the emotions get healed. The physical body gets healed.

JOHN: Yes.

SID: John has even gone into mental institutions in hopeless cases. One of the most hopeless cases they had in a mental institution was her heart was healed, she was healed. But I’ll tell you what, I want you to pray a supernatural prayer with John, because this is what he found out. The gift is growing. The same thing happened with me. I started laying hands on people and they got physically healed. Then I started speaking it, not even laying hands, and they got just as healed. I’ll have him pray for you when we come back.