Sid Roth

Sid:  My guest is red hot for the Messiah her name is Vickie Faurie.  I’m speaking to her at her home in Broken Arrow, Oklahoma. I’ll tell ya that if you’d gone through the experience that she had as a 13 year old you’d be red hot for the Messiah too.  A year earlier just out of the blue her body started shutting down; her organs shut down.  She couldn’t eat; she went down to 52 pounds.  The Doctor said “Prepare for her death,” she only had a couple of weeks to live.  There was pain throughout her body; her body was deformed she couldn’t walk; she was totally crippled.  And she went to a Kathryn Kuhlman service and literally the fire of God hit her.  And she was not gradually, she was instantly healed.  She went and had a nice meal; she slept fine.  She not only could walk she ran; before that it was impossible her limbs were deformed.  And so she knows what miracles are.  And yet Vickie Faurie you told me off the air that you were backslidden.  How does someone go from that type of miracle to being backslidden?

Vickie: Well Sid when I received that miracle I was 13 and in between that time I was Baptist and I went to various Baptist churches sharing my message.  Of course the Baptist Church that I was in had to embrace it fully because they saw the before and after.   And a lot at that timeframe did not embrace it and so they didn’t believe it and so for while I did not share my message.  And then I proceeded onward; and I did become… I left the Baptist and I went Assembly of God. But I got mixed up just before I got married with the wrong crowd of people. I’ll tell you it whosever you dwell with and associate with that if you are not strong enough in the Lord they can sway you and I was not strong enough.  And they swayed me; rather than me swaying them they swayed me because I wasn’t anchored enough yet.  I didn’t understand things; I didn’t understand the death position.  I didn’t understand how to deny myself and take up my cross and follow Him.  And I knew I was healed; I knew about the power of God but yet at the same time I was being taught within the religious society that Jesus would accept me no matter what and all I’d have to do is go ask forgiveness and I’d be forgiven and I could do whatever I wanted.

Sid: How does this differ from the Word; share a few scriptures.

Vickie:  Well, the word declares; the one word that really struck out that hit me full force I’m going to share with you.  And it’s in Matthew 7 it’s Jesus speaking in 21.  “Not everyone who says to me ‘Lord, Lord will enter the Kingdom of Heaven but only…’” and the Lord had me underline the word only; “Only he who does the will…and then He told me to underline he who does the will.  “Only he who does the will of My Father who is in Heaven.”  Because I was calling Him Lord and He stopped me one day  and He said “Do not call me Lord because I’m not your Lord.”  And I said “But Lord, I started naming things that I had done for His Kingdom.”  He said “You did nothing for you are nothing; I’d done all of those things and I can use a donkey.”  He said “I want you to know I only use yielded empty vessels.”

Sid: You know I’ve read these scriptures the same ones you’re quoting and everyone that’s a true believer has read these scriptures.

Vickie:  Hmm, hm.

Sid: And somehow because very few people are walking in such union with God; and that’s what the word is. So few Christians have died to self that you let it slide by.  I have a question for you “Are we waiting for God to change us or is God waiting on us?”

Vickie: He’s waiting on us.  God changes not; He’s the same yesterday today and forever.    It’s are we changing; we have to become the bride without spot wrinkle or blemish.  We have to be purified; sanctified; holy; totally yielded to Him.

Sid: I have to ask you this question; you understand this now you are not backslidden now.  Do you feel like you’ve sacrificed a lot by dying to self?  Do you feel like you’ve missed important things in your life by sacrificing to self?

Vickie:  No.  Really the death to self-position when you have the Holy Spirit and Jesus and everything within you it’s worth more than anything else in the world.  There’s nothing that can compare to when you die to self to know how much you love God; how sweet Jesus is, and the love of Jesus and the Holy Spirit.  I mean all of that you can’t measure it.  If you were to take and put it and measure it it far outweighs the balances of anything the world itself has to offer.

Sid:  As best you can describe this Vickie “What is your understanding of dying to self?”

Vickie:  Total surrender of your will to the Father’s will.  Really it’s where you no longer; you submit yourself into the Makers hand. I mean it’s no longer you that is in control. You’re no longer telling the maker how to mold you; how to make you; how to form you; how to create you.

Sid: Your telling me that you’re going to be in a totally satisfied state ,whereas in the world in the natural, if you’re an alcoholic or a drug addict you have to keep getting stronger alcohol the stronger alcohol or stronger drugs to be satisfied.  But you’re saying you’re walking in such union with God that you’re totally satisfied.

Vickie: Yes, exactly and utter peace.  There’s a peace that passes literally your understanding.  There’s a deep peace and joy unspeakable.  I mean when Jesus said “he only came to say and do the will of the Father for a long time I couldn’t understand that scripture.  I couldn’t understand why Jesus came in the form of mankind.  I know He came to die for us but why; why, why did He come and live His life as man in total complete submission counting Himself as nothing?  He was showing us that if we would just submit to the Maker and do the will of the Father that is where everything… that is where everything flows.  There’s a river of peace as you lay yourself upon the altar of sacrifice and you sacrifice yourself and you give everything.  There’s a peace that just cannot be described.  There’s a love for all of all mankind and you love them with everything that’s within you.

Sid: And you know what you sound like?  I come from a Jewish background and you sound like you’re living what in Judaism is called the Sh’ma. It’s Deuteronomy 6:4 “Hear Oh Israel the Lord our God; the Lord is One.  And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart; all your mind; all your strength.”  And then there’s another verse which Jesus couples with that when He was asked “How do you fulfill the law?”  Jesus said the Sh’ma and then He said “You shall love your neighbor as yourself.”  And I’ll tell you candidly Vickie I have been praying that every day that I’d be able to walk in that because to me that’s the ultimate. That’s what Jesus said.

Vickie:  That’s right and all you have to do.  And so many times I would get up and I prayed one simple prayer for a long time and I said “Lord give me a heart like Your Son where I’ll walk according to Your will and I’ll love just like He loved”  unconditionally.

Sid: But did it hurt; did you suffer in a real bad way to get to this point?

Vickie:  I’ll be truthful with you Sid.

Sid: Please.

Vickie:  First it was very difficult and God told me “I’m going to strip you down to nothing.  If you want this it may cost you everything you have.”

Sid: Now I don’t want to get too personal but can you give me an example of what you lost.

Vickie: Well the enemy of course when you enter into this arena the principality powers and rulers of darkness are going to fight. I’m not going to let somebody believe that they’re not in for a battle.  But at the same time the victory is yours in Christ Jesus.  The cost of it in reference to certain things Satan tried to make us in a number of things make it look like we were going to be destroyed. That everything was going to be taken away.  And I would fervently stand and pray to God; the seeking Him in reference to a certain attack. If it were my children; if it was my youngest child or my oldest child or my daughter-in-law or even up until recently he even attacked my grandson.  I would pray fervently on their behalf.      

Sid: Who won?

Vickie:   God.

Sid: Okay we’re out of time Mishpochah…